Have you ever found yourself at a cross roads wondering if you are where you are supposed to be in life? Being in my twenties, I find myself questioning where I am in life and my abilities. Last year, I have been spending a lot of time growing as a blogger. I wanted to find ways to make my blog a side hustle and perhaps even monetize here on my blog.
Needless to say, I became consumed with growing here on my blog that I did not take the time for truly enjoy the holidays when it arrived. My first and most important priority has always been my family and dearest friends. I love this blog. I love everything that I have created and all the accomplishments I have achieved. But I have understood, now more than ever, the importance of balance.
I have not been shy admitting that I have battled with depressed and anxiety in the past. While I am positive in everything I do, pretending that I have a life that is always perfect is a lie. And the last thing I want to do is lie about who I am as a person. Depression is not a fight. It’s a battle – one that I face every day. And thankfully, I know I am not alone.
So when I realized that I basically let my favorite holiday go by so quickly, my depression started to win a battle or two. I felt so un-fullfied and disappointed in myself that I let one part of my life overshadow the other. But this year, this are going to be different. This year, I am going to be making some changes.
I have decided first and foremost to make my happiness my top priority. This is something I started last year and I encourage you to do the same. Last year, I made a choice to put my happiness first by stepping away from people who are unsupportive of me. That is one of the secrets to staying positive. Have you ever heard the phrase your tribe attracts your vibe? Guess what: this phrase is true. Who you surround yourself with in the next 5 years will determine the type of person you will become. We are social creatures and as such, are influenced by the people who choose to spend our time with. Choose wisely.
Lately, I have been wearing beret a lot. And I have come to realize it is because I have a travel bug that needs to see the world (perhaps France..?). Growing up in a poorer middle class, I have only had the chance to travel a few times. Now that I am older and am establishing my career, I hope this year is filled with new adventures. Traveling offers humility and a sense of gratitude. I do hope this year is a year when I get to meet new people as well as see new places. Anytime I do get the chance to travel, I feel fulfilled in a way that nothing else can.
Lastly, I have two promises. A promise to myself and a promise to all of you. Last year, I did not spend my time wisely. If someone asked me to do a blog post for free brand awareness without any pay, I did it. I felt that because my follower account was low (and that I needed some brand awareness myself) I would take deals with brands that would cost me hundreds in time and effort. Not anymore. I recognize my worth as a blogger as well as the value of what I can put on to the table for brands. That is why I have decided that I will ONLY work with brands that I truly trust or believe in. I love that you all come to me in confidence and I do not want that to change. There are so many things in this industry that are fake. The last thing I want to do is be fake with any of you. My promise to you: to stay authentic.
My promise to myself is to work on creating balance in my life. Psalm 46:10 is a very that I carry with me on a day to day basis. The first line of it is be still. A great trait that I have is that I love to hustle. I like to stay productive as often as I can. There is nothing wrong with being a go-getter. But our minds and bodies do need to take a break from work and our endeavors every now and then. I have a hard time being still but I recognize for my own mental health, I need to be better at it. My mission this year is to better my best version of myself. I hope that this year you also chose to do the same.
Thank you all for your continuous support and love. Most importantly, thank you for allowing me to voice my honesty with you all.
Thank you Katie Vee Photography for this amazing photographs!